Going back to work after 2 weeks holiday sucks. Getting up this morning was a bitch haha. Ah well, can't complain too much as I have a job. Still, after sleeping in for 2 weeks, it reminded me of how much I love sleeping and left me wondering why the hell I'm doing this job haha. Hope I'm giving up my precious sleep time for something worthwhile, happy Monday people.
It's me again. Wow, I knew that i hadn't blogged for a while now but I didn't realise just how long ago. But then again, nothing much has happened since I last blogged, I'm still recovering though I'm much better now, aiming to play sports again by year end or by early next year. Can't rush it, just wanna be fully ok before I play again and to that end, i've been swimming, dutifully enough I guess though I could do better. I get lazy sometimes. Other than that, really not much has happened except the past few months came and went just like that. We're moving into September and I'm asking myself where the hell the time went. Ah well, guess it's a mixture of both the work I'm doing and the stage we're in now.
Don't know if it's just a popular theme lately but it seems like there are a lot of movies lately about people getting stuck in their lives, doing what "they should be doing" and not doing what they want to be doing. It's kind of like when we were younger and had just started working. Many people started working because that's what they "should be doing" or it was what "everybody else was doing" without really giving much thought to what they want to be doing, responsibilities aside. At our age now though, I guess people are still going through the same issues but now it's not about career and more about settling down and getting married.
After watching a lot of movies (I have nothing better to do with an injured back...not that I mind watching movies anyway) and listening to friends talking about getting married and getting divorced, I guess I'm just not at that stage yet. I definitely believe in marriage myself, I think it's a beatiful thing and people should marry for the right reasons i.e. they love each other and they want to spend the rest of their life together. There's still so much for me to see and do and so much that I still need to achieve that it's just not something I'm looking into. I'll be stepping into 30's territory next year but it just doesn't seem a problem to me that I'm not ready to settle. I keep telling my female friends that are getting depressed about becoming 30 that 30's is the new 20's and it really is kinda true. Things just aren't going the same pace as the generation before us so we shouldn't feel like we "need to be somewhere" or "doing something" by a certain age.
I guess there's just a lot about life that I still want to enjoy before I settle down. Life is fragile. A friend passed away recently in a tragic accident and it's reminded me that you shouldn't take life for granted. You shouldn't take anything for granted because you just don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. Appreciate what you have in life and enjoy life as much as you can. Everybody has regrets in their life. Just try not to think back 10 years from now and gnaw about what might have been when you can do something about it today.
New year came and New year went and here we all are in 2009. Everybody's hoping that 2009 will be a better year, whether for our economy, global economy, our health, our family, our jobs, everything and I'm hoping that's true too. My lot hasn't changed that much since I last wrote on this blog in 2008 but I'm still recovering and it seems that I am a lot better, perhaps 50% or so? The funny thing is, even though it's 2009, I somehow don't feel it's really the new year yet and I'm still on the same stroke of luck (terrible luck that is) of 2008. Ok that was a bit unfair because 2008 hasn't been all that bad for me despite my back injury but I guess what I'm trying to say is that for me, the new year, and all that will hopefully come with it, won't come until Chinese New Year comes and we're officially in the Year of the Ox. Like I said, maybe it's coz I'm Chinese hehe and I work more by the Chinese calendar haha but bear in mind that I have no qualms celebrating each and every holiday in the western calendar, I'm adaptable hehehehe. Counting down to CNY people : )
P.S. One small note of interest is that the ox is actually a castrated male adult bull...so we're entering the Year of the Castrated Bull...that can't be good for fnancial markets right? A broker told me that by coincidence, or not, that all the previous years of recession have also been Year of the Ox...1997, 1985 etc...hoping it's coincidence.
Christmas has come and gone now and with my back the way it is, I didn't really get to enjoy it all that much. I am recovering but ever so slowly but I should be grateful that I am at least recovering. On the good news front, I got promoted and given so many people got laid off, it's definitely encouraging and a sign of recognition. It also helps me to feel that I'm finally getting somewhere with my career. Who would've thought several years ago that this is where I'd end up being? I certainly didn't but here I am and happy with it. On the not so good news front is that with the economy the way it is, I didn't get the normal bump up of salary that normally comes with my promotion so looks like i'm going to be cashs strapped for another year. Still things could definitely be worse and I am grateful for what I have. All in all, things haven't been too bad. Counting down a few more days to the new year and I'll probably do a 2008 review then haha. Over and out...
I hate the feeling when there's a situation I can't do anything about. I've been working so hard and waking up at 6am everyday just so I can make things better only to find out that it's not going to make things better, at least not for another year. I'm so tired of hanging on and barely getting along and also makes me think why the hell am I doing this. I know it'll all work out in the long term but what do I do now? I know this is just me ranting to get it out of my system but I've been looking for this break for so long now and it still seems so far away even though I've moved so far already. Blame it on the current times they said...not a lot of consolation really. *Sigh* Still, I've still got a job, my family is around me, I have a roof over my head and warm meals every meal...things could be a lot worse I guess. My back isn't helping my thoughts nor is another matter that's been bugging me too. I don't mind hardship in life because they make people come out the other side all that much stronger and better...but seriously, they don't have to make it so hard ALL the time haha. *Deep breath* I know things will be okay in the end, I just have to get there. On a more positive note, it's an absolutely beautiful day outside today : )
My slipped disc is really getting to me. I can deal with the discomfort during the day but when it gets in the way of my sleeping, it's just intolerable. No matter what position I'm in, I just can't relieve the discomfort. Hope I get better soon, I've already missed out on a lot of birthdays and gatherings because I'm just not well enough to go sit or stand around. Work isn't helping as I'm sitting day in day out. It's just so annoying...
See? I said I'd update this more regularly...but then i have nothing to report today except that my back is still injured and I heard that there may be more job cuts tomorrow...so do I go to work or not? Haha ah well, que sera sera....
On a side note, I'm seeing this acupuncture/tui na doctor tomorrow and I'm hoping it'll work quite well and I can get better sooner...or at least sleep properly at nights first. What was I saying before again? Oh yes, que sera sera....
Wow I took a look and I realized I haven't updated this in half a year...which just so happens to co-incide with how long I've been going out with my girlfriend now. Interesting observation no? Haha nah not blaming anybody, I've just been lazy with my blogging due to both work and bouts of injury or sickness. In fact I'm injured again with a slipped disc which I'm very unhappy about not only because it hurts like hell sometimes but also because it restricts me from most actions and even walking, i'm currently limping around everywhere I go. I miss my soccer so much!
Work wise has been ok, I've switched roles to trading since my last blog and it was what i've been working towards for a long time now so i'm glad that things worked out. I have to say that I think I've settled in quite well into the new job with no prior experience and at least I'm not getting too many complaints or losing the company too much money (*touch wood*). This slipped disc is making things hard for me though as I can't sit for extended periods of time but trying to find ways around it including getting a special chair which will help a lot but will also cost a lot so I'm not so sure.
Compensation time is coming soon and I'm desperately hoping that 1) i get to keep my job even though cuts are being made everywhere and 2) I'll finally have my salary raised back inline with what I do as I'm still working on my old salary so I'm essentially slave labour. God knows I'll need that raise and whatever bonus I can get. Mum hasn't been pressuring me as much after I told her that worrying isn't going to get us anywhere but I'm really hoping that i'll be able to allay her worries soon enough...and my own for that matter.
I've gone out less now because i've been either sick or injured lately and also because I'm spending more time with my girlfriend which I enjoy a lot. I've always liked spending quiet times, watching DVD's and what not but I haven't caught up with some friends in a while now and given my back is the way it is, the xmas period is looking to be fairly quiet for me this year so the catching up may have to wait a bit.
I was musing the other day and I do tend to hang out with different groups for a time and then some thing changes, a new dynamic comes in and then I start hanging out with other groups but it's never through a concious effort that I change groups. So I have a lot of good friends but none that I hang out with every single w/end like I used to when I was back in Sydney. In a way it's good because I'm never bored with whatever I do as I'm with good friends whichever bunch I'm with and I've never really judged how good friends are by the amount of time spent with them. I've always thought good friends are the ones that even when you don't see very often but when you do see them, it's like only been a day since you last saw them and you know you can pretty much trust these people with anything. Still definitely lots of catching up to do. My friends are very important to me.
Chris was in town not long ago and it was great catching up with him, chatting about everything and it's always good to have someone to bitch to about life hahaha. No i'm not that unsatisfied with life but things could just always be better hehehe Ok so i'm a iddle little bit greedy hehe. I always tell people, we are already so lucky. I mean, when people complain about their wages, there are people in the world trying to survive on less than 1 USD a month and when some people complain about the food and drink they're getting, there are some people in the world just fighting fror a chance to drink clean water. Man, am I morbid or what?? Hahaha i'm blaming it on my back for that outpour just then.
I've been sitting for too long now as it is so I'm going to go lie back down and continue with my friends marathon (I'm up to season 6 hehe). Blogging is kinda like gym in that now that I've started again, I'll prob find it easier to update it again soon so i'm going to leave this blog more as catch up (there's that term again) and I'll find something with a bit more meaning to post next time around.
Have a great week all : )
I haven't been keeping this blog up to date. Sometimes it's because I forget, sometimes it's because i'm too tired, sometimes it's because I don't have time and sometimes it's because I just don't feel like writing. So what has happened since I last wrote? The job that i've been hoping to get opened up, i went for a long series of interviews and believe it or not, i actually managed to land it.
I was happy when I got the news partially because I was sick and tired of interviewing and partially because I finally got the job I wanted. But at the same time, I wasn't as ecstatic as I thought I would be. Maybe it's because it dragged on for too long or maybe I'm not sure it really is what I want. That's kinda not true because I do want it because it'll be interesting, it'll be intense and it's the move in the right direction.
Maybe it's because before I got it, I was worried that I wouldn't get it and now that I have got it, I'm worried how I'll totally stuff up in the role and have to get fired probably. These fears are probably unfounded but I have a lot on my mind perhaps so it's all getting to me a bit. It doesn't help that I sprained my ankle badly a few weeks ago and haven't been able to go for a good run for a few weeks. Can't wait till I can play again.
On a healthy note, i've finally gotten back into a gym regime and hoping I can stick to it. It's been raining cats and dogs today and the foul weather didn'd do anything to cheer up my not too great mood which is why I'm sitting at home finally updating this blog on a friday night...that and because I'm actually quite tired for some reason. I think it's the lack of running my body is used to.
Enough whining, happy long weekend to all you people : )
After being terribly sick for a week, had a very peaceful weekend where I concentrated on recovering and watching lots of TV. Not watching anything new though, all old soapies that I wanted to rewatch and it was very enjoyable. Now it's mid-week again and hopefully the weekend will come soon. I'm undeniably older now but at the same time, I feel that things are going to get better in many ways so hope it all does work out. I've been fretting an interview though so I've been trying to prepare myself for it as well as I can, read up on some research and hope it doesn't all just dribble back out haha. I know msyelf well enough to admit my own strengths (very good at eating and drinking) and weaknesses (pure laziness defined) and I believe in myself enough that I think I'll do okay. Let's see shall we? And hope I'll have good news to put up here soon : )
